Friday, December 29, 2006

One Down

I mailed my Columbia application in today, complete with personal statement, writing sample, and literary essay. It's been a while since I've written a literary essay. Readers of this blog (both of you) will know that, from time to time, when my fancy is tickled, I like to review theatrical pieces I've seen. But it's been a long time since I've written a really thought-out review for a piece of literature. I ended up with a review of Chuck Palahniuk's Haunted that I was pretty happy with, so I thought I'd include it here. Enjoy.

Caulk in the Mosaic: A Critical Response to Chuck Palahniuk’s Haunted

In the afterword to the paperback edition of Haunted, Chuck Palahniuk laments that the first time he read the story “Guts” out loud, nobody fainted. He seems genuinely saddened and he solidifies that impression by going on for the next six pages, recounting in great detail the various fainting incidents at bookstores and universities around the world, about the medical causes of fainting, about his editor telling him he’d, “done enough damage with this story.” Much of the afterword gives the impression that Palahniuk only wrote Haunted as a device to make people faint, since it’s about the only aspect of the book he sees fit to mention. Fortunately, somewhere in the last paragraphs of his essay, he comes to something resembling a reason for writing the book:

“My goal was just to write some new form of horror story, something based on the ordinary world. Without supernatural monsters or magic. This would be a book you wouldn’t want to keep next to your bed, a book that would be a trapdoor down into some dark place. A place only you could go, alone, when you opened the cover.”

Those are brave goals. Never mind that horror novels have tried, pretty much since their conception, to create a safe place for their audiences to explore the darker side of their nature, whether their monsters are supernatural ones or real-life. It’s always admirable for a writer to set out with more than just story in mind, and the horrors of every day life are worth exploring anew by each generation of horror stories. It’s an ambitious goal, which makes it particularly disappointing that the book falls so very short of its mark.


Haunted’s
structure is its failing. Palahniuk chose to write Haunted as twenty-three short stories bound together by a framing narrative about would-be writers at a month-long retreat. This form is called a mosaic narrative and, done well, it can be a subtle but effective way to express an idea or a mood. It can be a great form for horror, which works best when it creates the almost subliminal feeling of just waking from a nightmare. Unfortunately, mosaic narrative requires a great deal of delicacy and finesse to pull it off, and this is where Palahniuk falls short.

Taken just as a book of short stories, Haunted would be worth reading. Stories like “Evil Spirits,” about a girl who escapes from a secret island where the U.S. Navy quarantines carriers of deadly diseases, or “Dissertation,” about a tribe of Native Americans who carry a gene that makes them periodically turn into monsters are interesting reads and evocative of modern fears about disease and strangers, but they can hardly be called horrors of the “ordinary.” The very best of the stories in Haunted, “The Nightmare Box” and “Poster Child,” tap into a relatively simple and genuine kind of horror: the horror of being stripped of mirth by something as simple as an idea.. In and of themselves, the stories are decently written. Even where they don’t entirely work as horrors—really, what’s so horrific about the rich urbanites in “Slumming” pretending to be bag ladies for kicks?—they are entertaining enough that they would warrant sitting down for an afternoon to read them.

Where Haunted falls apart is in Palahniuk’s attempt to jerry-rig a novel out of a book of short stories. A braver writer could have done it. Someone who trusted his stories to speak for themselves could have built a mosaic out of them with just the thinnest of outlying structures. Palahniuk almost does it—each story is preceded by a poem about its narrator, which could have worked nicely as a framing device. But Palahniuk, seemingly unwilling to lose his audience to subtlety and nuance, had to drive his point home with a sledge. So he built a monster of a framework in the form of a half-realized story about people in a writer’s retreat sabotaging their lives and their writing through their collective need for drama. That’s great, or could it be, but the ultimate point he makes in this framing narrative—that we’ve become drama obsessed as a society—feels forced on to the rest of the book. It’s as though he had an idea for a book of horror stories, but feared that their point wasn’t self-evident enough, so he foisted a half-realized narrative about media obsession on them. As a result, rather than helping the stories and binding them together, the framework gums up the flow of the book. In the rare cases where his interludes are short, they’re readable, but as Haunted comes to a close, Palahniuk labors ever harder to make his point fit the rest of the book, and his hand becomes all too visible moving in the stories.

What’s more, rather than giving his characters actual names, he labels them with condescending epithets like Miss Sneezy, Comrade Snarky, The Missing Link, essentially removing any chance that his readers will find actual horror in their stories. For a horror story to really work, the reader has to be able to see themselves in it. The reader of a horror story has to be able to say, “There but for the grace of God go I.” In naming his characters as types and epithets, Palahniuk makes the stories safe for his readers by taking them outside of the story. It gives his readers permission to view his drama mongering character, not as extensions of themselves, but as something other than them. They can say, “I’m not the one who gets caught up in this trap. It’s the Comrade Snarkys of the world.”

Haunted
set out with an ambitious goal in mind, but to reach such an ambitious goal takes a writer willing to stick out his neck and let his work stand on its own. Chuck Palahniuk is never willing to keep his hand from meddling in his stories, and the end result is that, rather than giving his readers a trapdoor into a dark place, Haunted hands them a shallow basement full of dull frights and penny-dreadful shocks.

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

The Art of Stuber

I haven't said much about the upcoming Tantalus show, Toy Chest, largely because I haven't said much about much of anything lately, but also because saying too much about it at this point would give away much of the surprise of seeing the show. What I will say is that Toy Chest is going to be the best Tantalus show since Ragnarok. I dare say, I expect it to be better than Ragnarok was. The script is tighter, the concept is better realized, and the creative forces behind it are working in much better unity than we did during Ragnarok. I expect it's going to be a doozy.

Also, I was pleased to hear recently that Ben Stuber is going to do the poster art for the show. I first got to know Ben during The Prometheus Myth and very much fell in love with his artwork. Though they were underutilized for the production, Ben's designs for the puppets were stunning and dynamic, capturing not just the stiff appearance of the character, but the mood as well. I've since come to enjoy his paintings, as well. At times stark and minimalist, at others, quite lush in color and dimension, Ben's art is going to be fantastic for this show. It's dark and surreal, lively and fantastic. I can't wait to see what he comes up with for us.

Thursday, November 30, 2006

Measured Out in Coffee Spoons

Time keeps flying by ever faster as I approach my grad school deadlines, tightening down slowly to that asymptote where I have only the thinnest margains in which to measure out my remaining time. I don't know what happened to November, but it's gone. The absence of night terrors about small grey men and strange metal lumps dwelling underneath my skin isn't proof that I haven't been abducted by aliens, but somehow I think the guy in the New Age bookstore was off the mark on this one. Whatever the reason, I have no time to waste. There's too much I need to write and not enough time in which to write it.

In the meantime, I've been remiss in my blogging. It's not that I haven't had anything to write about. I have. But every time I sit down to blog, I start thinking about all of the crap I still need to get done, and I panic a little. To date, I have started and failed to write blog entries on the following:

  • Two photo essays, one on what to do with two pounds of muscadine grapes that a friend happens to have growing on her back porch, and one on how to make my family ravioli.
  • A review of The Fountain (which is very good, by the way, but only if you're prepared to turn off reason for a while and watch it with your dreaming brain) in which I was going to talk about time and acceptance and brilliantly unify these things into a single concept that would have blown your minds wide open across your kitchen's back wall, where all the world might have seen them.
  • Endless observations, some witty, some merely whiny, about the process of applying to schools.
  • An essay about the endless bits of wonder and small magic that I find in cities. Such as a basket of pears my girlfriend and I found attached to someone's house one day with a note instructing people to take as many as they wanted.
  • A ton of generic entries about my everyday life that would have caught my friends (the only people I believe actually read this) and fans (who exist in my head, but don't tell me to burn things) up on what I've been up to.
So here I am, and for once, the act of procrastinating has intersected with the act of blogging and the two have unified into a kind of procrastiblog. That sound you hear is the fourth dimension tightening around me.

Monday, November 06, 2006

Just a Quick Reminder

Hey folks. Just a reminder that, if you live in the U.S., tomorrow is your chance to implement some change or put in your vote for the status quo (if you don't live in the U.S., I'm flattered you're reading this, and I'm really sorry...just be happy you don't live with the guy*) . I'm not long for promoting any one candidate, but I will say I'll be positively green with rage if you don't vote for someone. Yep. Positively. Green.

As a bit of an election day special, Jay Is Games has been running nothing but politically based games for the past couple of days. One such, September 12, a Toy World, is an interesting meditation on the nature of violence and terrorism. You're given a crosshairs and your objective is to shoot or not to shoot. If you shoot, you can aim for terrorists, but watch out to avoid civilians. What results should be reasonably obvious to anyone who's given a moment's thought on the question of why people become terrorists in the first place (hint: it's not just because they're a bunch of crazy people who don't value life the way we do).

So there you go. Now go out there and vote (tomorrow).

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

House of Tea

The other night, I got home from a Tantalus meeting and found that my father had sent me this article, about the House of Tea in South Philly. When I was a teenager, my father and I would regularly visit the House of Tea as part of our weekend grocery shopping. The first green tea I ever drank was from there, a Japanese sencha that a overbrewed until it was intolerably bitter.

The owner of the House of Tea was named Nathaniel. He was this short man with a great big Franklin stove of a belly who wheezed with every breath and knew more about tea than anyone I've ever met.

He'd say things like, "I'm a seventh level tea master. I could become an eighth level tea master, but it would take too long."

How do you become an eighth level tea master?

"You perform the tea ritual over and over again, meditate on tea, write poetry about tea."

The man always had a story to tell, no matter when you were going into the shop. He'd deliver it in the most matter-of-fact fashion, without theatrics or elaboration, as though he wasn't telling the story for any other reason than to tell you the story while he was measuring out your tea. I was never sure if they were true stories or if Nathaniel was just an accomplished bullshitter, but it never much mattered to me. They were fascinating stories and that was all it took to keep my father and I in wrapt attention for, at times, a good hour.

Nathaniel died a couple of years ago and with his departure, I had assumed that the House of Tea was no more. It's good to know it's still there and that his daughter is carrying on his work. Maybe I'll stop in there the next time I'm in Philly. See if she's got her father's gift for gab.

Friday, October 06, 2006

Homeward

My vacation time is coming to an end, and for once at the end of a vacation, I'm happy to be going home. Which isn't to say that I haven't enjoyed being in Asheville. I have spent the past couple of weeks reconnecting to people and friends I never should have lost touch with, and for that reason alone, this trip has been fantastic. Now I'm ready to go home and be in my city and see my friends from now. I'm ready, most of all, to sleep in my own bed again and enjoy the company of a familiar form there with me. I have moved forward and so has Asheville. It was good to be here again and to know that it's still here. It will feel good to go home and start forward again.

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

My, but There's a lot of Banjo

Yesterday I said goodbye to a friend of mine I haven't seen in two years. She had come in from Durham the night before to see me and reconnect a bit, and we'd spent a couple of days wandering around town. We had seen a Klezmer Gypsy Tango Punk band (the combination of genres sounded very promising and delivered on it abundantly) play at a pirate/goth club owned by an old friend of ours, who, as my friend from Durham pointed out, always threw the best parties anyway, so it really made sense that he opened a bar.

After the show, we crashed on sofas at a big old semidilapidated house where I know people. My friend was a bit mortified by the entire idea of just dropping in on a group of people for the night and was doubly mortified when she saw the place we were dropping in on. I think it was the giant spider in the bathroom. Or the squatters we displaced coming back at two in the morning, looking for a place to sleep.

The next morning, we had breakfast at Tupelo Honey and spent the rest of the day window shopping in galleries too expensive for either of us to ever afford . Then we said our goodbyes in the afternoon in a parking garage and I walked off happy to have seen my friend and wishing it was more than just a couple of hours in a couple of years. Wishing I had someone around to talk to. I walked into the Everyday Gourmet to check my e-mail and to write a bit, and as I fixed my coffee, I got into a conversation with an elderly lady who spent the next hour telling me her life story--a hell of a life story, at that. By the time she was done and I was off to get dinner, my blues were gone and I was ready to move on with the night.

This is the kind of town Asheville is. It's the kind of town where you can have the most interesting conversation of your life with a complete stranger and you can spend hours sitting in a coffee shop refilling the same cup of coffee for a dollar fifty. It's a quiet mountain town whose streets are alive at night with bluegrass musicians and street artists of varying quality. It's a place where the worst poverty you've ever seen exists side by side with grotesque wealth. It's a town of rastafarian white kids who drive to downtown in fancy cars with leather interiors and hang out talking about bringing down Babylon, not seeing their own part in it. It's a town where even being open minded means corraling your thoughts into a specific viewpoint. It is it's own bubble, and what a pretty bubble it is, a self-contained little generator of a kind of energy I find I need from time to time. It would be easy for me to forget why I left in the first place, but ultimately I find myself thankful for what I've had since I left. For opportunities I've been given and for the people I've got.

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

It's Better in the Mountains

I arrived in Asheville on Sunday after a painless flight spent mostly sleeping. The night before the flight was a jumble of business, running around buying bottles for samples, packing, racking a batch of muscadine wine from the plastic bucket in my kitchen to its fancy secondary, a Carlo Rossi jug, piling organic fruit into my freezer so the fruit flies don't get it. At ten o'clock, as I made myself some angel hair pasta with peppers and eggplant, my friend Biddle called and asked if I wanted to have a walk-on role in a burlesque show. I did, so at eleven o'clock, with my luggage only half packed and my kitchen still not fruit-fly proof, I put on my best used-car salesman costume and made my way down to The Playground to walk on during the Belmont Burlesque and hand the MC divorce papers. Then I watched the rest of the show, went back home, finished packing, and slept for two hours before heading off to the airport. I boarded the plane, put my head against the window, and fell sound asleep.

I woke in Charlotte, caught a puddle-jumper over to Asheville, and was met at the airport by Sam and his boy, Nate. They drove me into town for some brunch at the Frog Bar, formerly the New French Bar, with folks in town for my friend Tracy's wedding. As Sam and I found parking in town, we drove past the Frog Bar, and there was everyone--Tracy, his bride Julie, Lauren and Jeremy, Terry; my old college friends--sitting outside drinking bloody Marys and beers as they had on Sunday mornings years ago. It was strange. I might have been staring at a memory.

It's strange to me how much has stayed the same as it once was. I'm sitting in Gold Hill right now, which was the coffee shop where I spent the entire summer after I graduated college. I sat in the same seat everyday, writing plays and chatting with my friend Kim, my friend Sam the jazz musician. The name of the cafe has changed. It's the Everday Gourmet, now, but they still serve the same coffee and I'm still there in the same seat, the same age, writing in my notebook. I'm incognito at the moment, wearing a beard, and I bet my name is different, but it's still basically me there. My replacement. Someone to fill the space I left. A great deal of the town is like this. Names have changed to protect the innocent--The World Coffee Cafe for Old Europe, The Frog Bar for the New French Bar--but even under new management, they're still basically the same places they always were.

Still, not to sound like I'm not enjoying my time here. On the contrary, there's a certain beauty to it all. There's a joy in coming back and reconnecting that I haven't experienced in other homecomings. Although Asheville hasn't changed so much, I have, and in returning, I have the opportunity to change who I am to this city. To fill a new space.

Saturday, September 23, 2006

If You Stare Long Enough into the Abyss, It Asks You a Quant-Comp Question

The GRE is officially over and done with. I took it yesterday afternoon on the sixteenth floor of 20 N. Clark St. in an office absolutely devoid of any markings. A room could potentially be more colorless, but I'm at a loss for how. There's an interesting kind of ritual to taking the GRE. I'm forbiddent to talk about the test in any explicit detail, so there will be no nudity in this post, but I can say that before you go into the testing room, you have to place everything on you into a locker. Bare of all cellphones, pagers, books, paper, pens, hats, jackets, little knicknacks that remind you of your mother, the photograph of the girl you left waiting for you like a war bride back home, you pass from the first room into a second room. A kind of holding area where they ask you if you are prepared--Is this your name? Did you leave all of your worldly possessions behind? Did we give you enough scratch paper?--and then they take your photograph and lead you into the room where you will take your test.

Not to romanticize it, but the whole ordeal is rather like the rites of manhood in some tribal cultures. The entry into a special area, the power relationship between priest and boy/proctor and test taker. It makes me think that Albee must have written Zoo Story just after taking his GRE.

Anyway, it's over. My score, for anyone interested, was a 1370. 690 verbal; 680 quantitative.
Afterward, I made a bonfire of my study materials and sat on my back porch drinking beers and watching them burn. Tomorrow, I leave for Asheville to visit with old friends I haven't seen in far too long.

Monday, September 11, 2006

1380<1450

I woke up this morning with something of a panicky sweat on my brow. The GRE is eleven days away, and I woke up feeling less prepared to take it than I ever have before. So I took a sick day to take a practice exam and study. I did better on the practice exam than I thought. 760 verbal and 620 math. Which means, not surprisingly, that I'm better with the English language than I am with the numeric language. I can up that math score some, but I mainly want to spend the next eleven days writing essays. Thanks to Sam, who was nice enough to send me essay topics. I'll post my answers here soon. I promise.

The essay section actually remindes me of a poetry professor I had in college. His name was Garland and he was a fantastic guy, but he let me get away with things I really shouldn't have gotten away with. Such as my answer to essay question that asked us to compare and contrast three poets we had read. I had compared and contrasted them according to their sexes and whether the first letters of their names were vowels or consonants. I remember thinking I was pretty clever at the time. How wrong I was.

Garland, if you're reading this, rest assured it's come back to bite me in the ass. I'm off to go write essays arguing whether--well who knows what topic they'll want me to argue.

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

Can I Take the Physical Challenge?

As I've mentioned, I'm taking the GRE in a few weeks. I've been preparing for it, studying vocabulary, brushing up on my eighth grade math, panicking slightly. Mostly, I've been taking practice exams online and with my computer. This helps me to see my trouble areas in the math and verbal sections, but it doesn't help me with the essay portion of the test. I figure the only way for me to get better at the essay section is to write a lot of essays, so I'm asking for your help. Send me essay topics. They need to be phrased in the form of an argument (i.e., "The only way to really cut loose and have fun on a Friday night is by studying a nice stack of flash cards."), but other than that, I leave it up to you. I'll publish the resultant essays here.

The Tyrant Calls You...
The first issue of the NY Tyrant is out. Buy a copy and you can read my story, "Every Little Farm Girl Knows How to Fix a Tractor." You can get it via their Web site or, if you live in NY, at your local independent bookstore.

Monday, August 21, 2006

How I Spent My Summer Vacation

Well, I'm back. I'm not actually going to bore you all with the details of my summer vacation, but in brief, I traveled up through the foreign lands of Canada to Niagra Falls, which would be utterly gorgeous if not for the fact that it's surrounded by one of the tackiest tourist towns I've ever seen. After that, I hiked in the Zoar valley and wandered around western New York for a few days before I caught a train to NYC to visit friends and then caught a bus to the Jersey shore, where I stayed for most of the rest of my trip.

I actually did get some fishing done. My mother's husband, Joe, and I went out deep-sea fishing one day. I caught this guy, a mahi-mahi who later became this meal, and Joe caught half a dozen sea bass. The rest of the time, I mostly relaxed by the water, read, kayaked, and spent time with my niece (picture to come) before I caught the train home.

On my way back, the train was waylaid by a group of monkeys who were hellbent on taking over the train. I managed to fend them off from most of the rest of the passengers, but was taken prisoner. They brought me to France and forced me to perform street theatre with giant puppets for days at a time. Finally, I escaped on one of the elephants and found a cruise ship bound for Chicago by way of the Atlantic. I stowed away disguised as a cocktail waitress and made my way back home one cocktail at a time. The ocean was lovely, and the tips weren't half bad, either.

Anyway, I'm back. I have a month to finish prepping for my GRE, a trip to North Carolina coming up, and all sorts of other craziness to deal with, but I'm back. It's good to be home. When I got off the ship at Navy Pier, I had a definite sense that I was back home, back in my city. I took it in on my way to the train, and boy, did it feel good.

Update
This is my niece, Maude. Tell me she isn't adorable.



As luck would have it, she's also fond of her Uncle Matt. I love family.

Thursday, July 27, 2006

Gone Fishin'

Hey, all (both of you), I'm going to be gone for a couple of weeks, starting tomorrow. I'm taking off tomorrow with a friend for a few days of hiking in upstate NY, followed by a few days in Manhattan. Then I'm off to the beach. I probably won't be updating while I'm gone so, well, don't miss me. Both of you.

Sunday, July 16, 2006

Strange Ending

The Strange Dreams of Nobody in Particular closed this weeked. It was a great run, and thanks to the many talented people who worked very hard on it, we pulled off a final marathon that I'm very proud of. Now all that remains is our encore performance in Millenium Park, and then my baby goes off on its own for a while. I'll miss this show. More than I think I realized.

Belle Epoch...
Last Saturday, I woke up, went to the store for some milk, and when I came back, noticed that my mail had come. In it was a package containing a small bottle of hausgemacht (that's German for Home made) absinthe. It was sent to me by an acquaintance on one of the absinthe forums I'm a member of. He had received a bottle of it and wanted to share his good fortune. There's really nothing quite like receiving unexpected presents of absinthe in the mail. It made my morning.

As recently as a decade ago, the only place anyone could get absinthe was the Czech Republic, which sold mixtures of cheap essential oils in poorly rectified alcohol to American tourists for far too much money. Today, there are several online suppliers, of varying reputation, that you can go to for your absinthe fix, but what really impresses me the most are the HGers, the people who make absinthe at home. There's a surprising number of peope in the U.S. alone who make absinthe. They come from diverse walks of life--IT people, military men, theatre folk--and they're united simply by a love of this drink, its complex history, the desire and ingenuity to pull off a culinary challenge.

This is what I love about absinthe. Beyond its history, beyond the mythology and romance of the drink, I love the ingenuity that it inspires in people. Even people who aren't making the drink make accoutrements for it, from spoons and grilles made by artists like Kirk Burkett, to a slew of homemade fountains, some merely functional, others unique works of art unto themselves. I have to admire the cleverness of these people. Anyone can buy the accessories to go along with a drink, but it's this ingenuity and creativity that makes it a hobby. I'm happy to raise a glass to that.

Strange Dreams at Millenium Park

I've been sitting on a bit of news for a while, not wanting to jinx it, but I think it's safe to talk about it now. A few weeks back, right around the opening of Strange Dreams..., our artistic director, Glen, got an e-mail from the city, asking if we would be interested in performing Strange Dreams... for Millenium Park's Promenade Performance Series. We wrote back and said that we would definitely be interested, but we didn't hear from them again.

On Friday, they wrote to Glen to tell him we've been booked for performance this coming Wednesday and on August 5. This is a fairly big deal. It means good exposure for Tantalus, and on a personal level, it's good to know people like the show.

Monday, July 10, 2006

Before the Offer Expires

Hey all. I can't believe I almost forgot about this. Tantalus Theatre Group is running a promotional sale of T-shirts and sweatshirts. The shirt features the Tantalus logo on the front with our Web address on the back. Sweatshirts come both with hoods and without, as zip-ups and pullovers. E-mail me soon if you want to order one and I'll place an order with you. If you don't live in Chicago, don't worry. We can either mail it to you, or I can bring it back east with me when I visit this summer. Details for the order are below. I believe I need to get them in within the next couple of days. E-mail me if you're interested and I'll send you the information about the prices.

In other news, Strange Dreams... is almost finished. We run for two more weeks and then, poof! It's gone. I've considered going back to the original stories, though, as written and reworking them. There's a lot to Strange Dreams... and although a show about storytelling is very different than a book about storytelling, I think it could make a really good children's book. It has potential, anyway.

After this show closes, a long hiatus from the company is in order for me. Mostly for practical reasons--I can't study for the GRE and focus on getting into grad school at the same time as I focus on Tantalus. But it's also to give me time to think and to rest. We've been going through a lot of restructuring lately, rexamining our mission statement, and it's made me realize a couple of things. One of them is that I really do care a great deal about this company. It's been such a part of my life in the past three years that I have a hard time conceiving of what I did before I was a company member. The other is that, despite that, I may be in a very different place artistically than Tantalus is. I need some time to think about that.

Saturday, June 24, 2006

Here We Are, Now. Entertain Us.

I've been entertaining a lot this past week, having folks over for dinner and drinks out on my back porch. I had forgotten how much I enjoy having folks over for dinner. Living in a small place and on a limited budget means that dinner parties are more or less out of the question, and since I don't have a proper table to sit at and eat in doors, even small parties are fairly impossible in the winter. The upshot of that is that I don't cook as much as I would like. Cooking for one is distinctly different than cooking for lots of people. I tend to make myself simple, small meals--like pastas and rice dishes--that I can eat in a sitting without too many leftovers. If I make larger, more complicated recipes, I can't eat it fast enough, so I end up wasting food. I hate wasting food.

So with all of the people coming by this week, I decided to take the opportunity to cook a couple of feasts. I'm particularly proud of the mushroom-spinach burgers I made on Thursday, so here's the recipe for any of you folks who want to try it out.

Mushroom-Spinach Burgers
Inspired by the Asheville Brew and View (and particularly by a failed attempt to find the same in Chicago when Amanda was visiting a couple of years back)

2 lbs portabello mushrooms
1 bag of baby spinach
1 medium onion (in truth, this was half a large onion and some leftover of another onion, but I estimate it came out to roughly as much as one medium onion)
2 eggs
Bread crumbs
Garlic, thyme, basil, and other herbs to taste

I washed the portabellos and spinach, then chopped the portabellos until they were coarse. Just enough to get them into manageable pieces to sautee. Sauteed the portabellos in a large skillet, then added a good portion of white wine. Enough to essentially boil the shrooms for a bit. After that cooked for a while, I slowly added the spinach--putting the lid on the skillet when I did, so that the spinach would wilt and cook into the mushrooms--until I had added the whole bag of spinach and cooked everything until the liquid portion was gone. After that, I tossed the whole mess of mushrooms and spinach into a food processor and blended until it was good and pureed. I'd rather have had them a bit chunkier, but my food processor doesn't do that very well.

I also ran the onion through the processor, then tossed everything into a bowl and mixed it well. Added the two eggs and the bread crumbs until the mixture was firm. Then I formed it into patties and broiled them.

They were a little mushy, but all in all, they were really good, especially for a first attempt at a burger clone. The next time I try it, I'm going to leave about a third to one half of the mushrooms out of the puree and simply chop them up so that there's a bit more of a meaty feeling. Also going to add more egg and use either matzoh meal or oats instead of bread crumbs. The ultimate goal being to have a burger pattie that's firmer than the ones I had. I've also found that they firm up pretty nicely when I reheat them the next day, so I might give them more time to set before I broil them.

In the mean time, if anyone wants to come over my place for a bite to eat, let me know. The oven's all fired up and ready for you.

Sunday, June 18, 2006

Speaking of Suburbia

I was exploring Jay is Games today and found the interactive work of art, Blue Suburbia. Explore the surreal environments, the haunting collage of sounds and words, the strange imagery. Blue Suburbia is what I think we'd see if we could walk around inside other people's dream lives. Enjoy, but be careful...there's a couple of dead ends.

Edit: As I've explored this further, I've found some portions of it are fairly disturbing. I know a few of you will find this genuinely creepy and that it will resonate with a couple of you in ways you might not like. Personally, I think it's a worthwhile thing to go through, but just so I'm playing fair, be warned.

Friday, June 16, 2006

Strange Dreams Come True

Gosh, I'm bad at self promotion. I can't believed this almost slipped my mind, but The Strange Dreams of Nobody in Particular opens tonight. This represents the culmination of two-years of gestation and workshop, and I'm really proud of what this show has become. I think it has a real sense of warmth and welcoming to it, and it really captures a lot of what I wanted it to. It has a real sense of the simplest magic of theatre: that of telling a story.



Come join us for this wonderful show.

Thursday, June 15, 2006

Blog Reading

I spent the last couple of days at work reading Mr. B's blog, catching myself up on his hijinx. If you haven't read it, I recommend it highly. It's a really good mix of essays and storytelling, journals and jokes, memes and personal observations. He's got a balance there that makes it a real joy to read, and when I read it, I get a really good sense of where Mr. B is at that particular moment. It's a good way of catching up with him if my schedule's too busy to permit me to walk the block and a half to his apartment and say hi.

On occasion, I don't particularly care if I write in this blog, because everytime I sit down to write something, I think, "Eh...nobody really reads this thing anyway." Reading Mr. B's blog was a good reminder that, in fact, people do read this thing and for a lot of folks I know, it's how they keep track of where I am. So I'm going to try to update more often from now on.

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

Sub-Urbia

I've been watching Strange Dreams... run throughs most of this week and have thoroughly enjoyed listening to the direction that the stories have gone in. Many of them are vastly different than when I wrote them, having been told back and forth and changed with each telling. It's been fascinating to watch.

The other day before the run began, Danielle and I were walking around Water's School Gardens collecting kindling for the campfire. Water's School Gardens, for anyone who hasn't seen it, is a wonderfully overgrown and rugged piece of land, fenced off from the city by an overgrowth of brush and grass. Tall trees block your view of the skyline and fences of fallen branches separate paths from garden plots. Walking through it feels less like walking through a community garden in a major metropolitan area than it does like walking through someone's backyard deep in Appalachia. As Danielle and I gathered dried wood (not from the fences), I commented to her that I could be very content living in that space and she agreed, adding that she really was a country girl, even though she grew up in the suburbs.

I thought about that. I grew up in the suburbs, too. Lower Makefield Township. If you go there today, you see housing developments made of row upon row of identical townhouses occupied by a strange mixture of elderly retirees and young parents or miniature mansions owned by folks living out of credit cards. The same folks who used to tell me they didn't have any money, back in my canvassing days. If you go there now, it's exactly what you expect a suburb to be. It's plastic communities, it's minimalls, it's conformity. But it wasn't that way back when.

When my family first moved there, LMT was still more farms and forest than anything else. We moved into a good-sized grey/blue house on Hollow Branch Lane in one of the newly developing subdivsions in the area. What I remember is that, if you walked to the end of my street, you were at the edge of the woods. It wasn't like living in colonial America or anything--I'm pretty sure the colonists were without malls--but the woods were pretty extensive, and my brother and I spent many afternoons walking up and down the mud paths buldozers were carving through them, mucking about in streams and drainage ditches, generally ruining our good sneakers and pants. My first book collection was a collection of Golden Guides. I had almost every Golden Guide to different kinds of animals and when my brother and I would go out on an expedition, we would come back with animals a plenty and explain what they were in great detail to my mother.

Gradually, my subdivision grew, as did the subdivisions around it. Local farms where my family bought our fresh produce were sold off as the farmers got old and developers offered them a healthy retirement package. Those bulldozers whose tracks made such good hiking slowly tore down the woods and leveled the dirt and dug foundations and laid down asphalt. As the subdivisions grew, they eventually overlapped, and it wasn't long before what had been woods and farm turned into a subdivision megalopolis with munchkin box houses as far as the eye can see.

Most of the woods around my house are gone now. Now it's subdivisions and strip malls, and the drainage ditches are festering and stale and nothing lives in them. Most of my childhood stomping grounds have been stomped. Sad as that is, it always makes me happy when I find a place like Waters School Gardens, a little bastion of overgrowth and nature that has somehow managed to keep itself cut off from all the clutter of a city like Chicago.

Thursday, June 08, 2006

Back in Real Life

I spent the last week or so catching up with all of the people and things I neglected during the run of The Prometheus Myth. I spent some time with my uncle here and had a long phone conversation with someone very far away and very near to my heart. I bought a book to help me study for the GRE and made flash cards to study vocabulary and started a batch of a new kind of mead (a hibiscus/apple mead that I think will be divine served cold on a summer evening). But what I've really wanted to do is to go away into the mountains and recharge for a while.

The exact feeling I want is the feeling you get when you wake up in a tent in the middle of nowhere. It's early--earlier than you'd usually wake up--and you've been sleeping on the ground and you're a little groggy, but you're rested and the morning is full of possibilities. You walk barefoot across wet, dewy grass to the remnants of your fire the night before where there are people already cooking breakfast and pouring coffee from a tin kettle (or maybe you slept next to the remnants of your fire the night before and you walk across the grass down to the spring for some water). And someone's got a guitar or folks are talking, but the key is everyone's there together.

I think I'll get that in a couple of months when I head off to Rochester for a couple of days, and I'll get it in spades in the fall when I head back down to Asheville. But for the time being, I'm here in real life and I've got this city and all of the people in it to enjoy. Life seems suddenly full of possibility, as it always does in the summer. It's a good feeling.

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Soon Unbound


The Prometheus Myth closes this weekend. Anyone in the Chicago area who wants to come see it should do so. Really, it's a great show and it represents the last five months of my life pretty well.

I've been involved in this project so long, it's hard to imagine not having rehearsal or a show every night. There's going to come something of a postpartum depression following all of it. It's been a beast of a process, and I'm going to miss it and the folks who've been on this crazy ride with me. So come see us move with our whole bodies and listen with our eyes and play with puppets. Then drink with us afterward. There's a closing night party on Saturday night for all those interested and willing to drop an extra couple of bucks.

After this, it's time to study for the GRE and get cracking on grad school. In addition to my writing workshops, I've recently decided to also apply to several viticulture and oenology programs in and around the country. More on that later.

Thursday, May 18, 2006

Holy Exquisite Corpse

The wheels to get me to grad school are officially in motion as of this week. I registered for my GRE and have begun researching schools, tuitions, etc. Which means I need to start studying, writing critical essays, revising my writing portfolio, etc. The hardest part about all of this, I think, is simply beginning to do it. I'm frankly a little afraid to start moving forward. But it must be done and fear has to be put aside and self actualization and so on and so so forth.

So.

Here we go.

Luckily, it's the summer, which, since I work for a university print shop, means I have fuck all to do with my day but sit and research grad schools on the Internet.

Wine...
I've been promising/threatening to post something about ferments and wine making and so forth on here one of these days. This weekend might be the time to do it. I meant to start a batch of white wine to turn into base absinthe alcohol last night, but was waylaid at the grocery store by Jess and Glen, who whisked me off to a friend's birthday party, where they forced me to drink delicious champagne and eat delicious cheese. Oh, the agony.

It occured to me as I was paying for the grapes to make white wine that, with grapes costing 3.99/lb, I might have actually paid less to buy five gallons of cheap wine than I did to make my own. That's a good life lesson to learn.

C'est la vie.

Finally...
Erin sent me a link to Zoom Quilt today. Play with it...do...my only complaint is that it doesn't last longer.

Monday, May 15, 2006

Small bit of news...
Last week, I got an e-mail from my friend, John Crea, who I knew in high school. He now teaches English classes at a school near where I used to live and he was teaching a course on Thoreau and transcendentalism and asked his students if they knew anyone who, whether they knew it or not, was a transcendentalist. The kids answered and then turned the question on him. He told them that he felt that I was a transcendentalist and then told them a bit of what he remembered of me in high school and so on and so forth. So apparently the kids were really fascinated by me and had a bunch of questions for me.

Anyway, as I was considering my answers to some very well thought out questions about my life philosophies, I started wondering how I was manifesting those beliefs in my daily life and kept finding that I really wasn't. I purport to be a person who wants to live in harmony with nature, someone who loves animals and believes in their rights, someone who is moral and ethical and considerate of my choices, etc., but too often, I think, I've come to take the easy road--to essentially say, "Well, I believe these things, but you know, it's really difficult to actually act on those beliefs." And for me, that's not an acceptable response.

So I've decided to become a vegetarian. My hope is that, by forcing myself to make a conscious decision about one major aspect of my life, I'll also start making more conscious choices about other areas of my life. Hopefully I'll be a better person for it. So don't feed me any steak.

Edit:
I should clarify that I'm still allowing fish in my diet. So technically, I'm a pescetarian. But the basic idea is the same.

Sunday, May 14, 2006

Web Business

With The Prometheus Myth up and running, my attention can now turn to other matters, like applying to grad school, writing, and more immediately my next show, The Strange Dreams of Nobody in Particular. Shiny has been rehearsing these past couple of weeks and I can finally come and see what's being made. From what I've seen, it's going to be a great show.

Alex Willan, the graphic designer for Strange Dreams... has sent us some sketches of the poster art. It's beautiful.

And Ian Knox has update the Tantalus Web site to include these designs.

Saturday, May 13, 2006

Opening Night

The Prometheus Myth officially opened last night to a good audience and much applause. I brought some absinthe with me afterward to share with the cast, and it was met with much curiosity and interest. Its possibly my favorite thing about my hobby--sharing absinthe with people who haven't ever had a chance to try it before.

Maybe it's the fact that today is rainy and grey and I'm a bit hungover from last night's cast party, but there's a twinge of melancholy that comes with the opening of a show like this. A bit of advanced nostalgia. I've gotten attached to this group of people, which tends to happen with a long and intense rehearsal process. I've sweat with them, moved with them, literally carried all of them at one point or another on my back. And they've done the same for me. I'll miss this crew. Hopefully I'll see them all frequently when all this is over.

In the meantime, there's twelve more shows to do. Come see an amazingly talented group of people nail Prometheus to the wall. Or rock, as the case may be.

  • May 12 - May 28, 2006
  • Thursdays, Fridays and Saturdays 8:00PM
  • Sundays 5:00PM
  • $12 suggested donation
  • $10 students and seniors

Friday, May 05, 2006

News and Updates...

With The Prometheus Myth going into tech, I decided now would be a good time to take a little time off from work to, well, avoid going crazy with stress. Which gives me a chance to update all of you with my life. I'll be glad when we open. Six months is a long time to rehearse a show. Come see it if you get a chance. The space is a bit out in the middle of nowhere, but it's really cool, and the trek will help you get into the show. Trust me.

Strange Dreams... rehearsals are off and running nicely. The space is a community garden in Lincoln Square. It's the kind of space that has no business anywhere in this city. It's like something I'd find back in Asheville. I love it.

Finally, NY Tyrant should be out by the middle of the summer. If any of you want to buy a copy (and you know you do), you can buy individual copies from their Web site through a Paypal account.

And that's that. Now I'm going to go back to the big important things I've got to do today. Like napping. Happy Cinco de Mayo.

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

I Didn't Even Know he Was Running for Office

Yeah, yeah...I know I've been running silent for the past couple of weeks. Mostly for reasons already cited. Strange Dreams... begins rehearsals this evening. We've got a great cast and I'm very excited to see this get going. I still need to finish typing the script, though, and I need to finish typing up a marketing blurb before someone kills me, but things are well under way. And The Prometheus Myth opens in three weeks. So that's been pretty busy.

I've got a couple of ferments going at the moment. I'll post more on them later. But first, I thought I'd get you all good and foaming at the mouth. I've got no link for all of this, so the complete article will be included below. My favorite quote from this has got to be, "The 250,000 people going to it will go back to their legislators and pressure them to vote for Jesus." That and the bit about the dinosaurs wandering around the Garden of Eden. But I'm getting ahead of myself. Read on and stock up for the coming Dark Age.


Genesis of a museum
Creationists, saying all the answers are in the Bible, put their beliefs on display in $25 million facility
By Lisa Anderson

Tribune national correspondent
Published April 25, 2006

PETERSBURG, Ky. -- The recent fossil discovery of a 375-million-year-old fish that could lurch ashore on bony transitional fins--apparently a long-sought missing link between sea creatures and land animals--made a spectacular splash in evolutionary science circles. But it created nary a ripple on the placid American campus of Answers in Genesis, where an enormous museum chronicling the biblical six days of creation is rising fast amid rolling fields.

Ken Ham, co-founder and president of Answers in Genesis, believed to be the world's largest creationist organization, and most "young-Earth" creationists are as unimpressed by science's finding another piece in the evolutionary puzzle as they are with science's finding the Earth to be 4.5 billion years old.

Using biblical calculations, young-Earth creationists believe the planet is about 6,000 years old; old-Earth creationists believe it could be older. Both, however, take the Bible literally and reject Charles Darwin's evolutionary theory that all life, including human, shares common ancestry and developed through random mutation and natural selection. Evolution enjoys near-universal support among scientists.

Not so among the American public, about half of which endorses creationism, according to polls. While new concepts such as intelligent design, which posits that life is so complicated that an intelligence must have devised it, recently have suffered setbacks from court rulings and scientific findings, creationism thrives, and Answers in Genesis is a strong sign of that.

Just hours after the fossil fish, called Tiktaalik roseae, landed on the front pages of many newspapers earlier this month, it also surfaced on the Answers in Genesis Web site. In a posting titled "Gone fishin' for a missing link?" the organization, in effect, threw Tiktaalik roseae back.

"Because evolutionists want to discover transitional forms, when they find a very old fish with leg-bone-like bones in its fins, they want to interpret this as evidence that it is some sort of transitional creature. . . . It may be just another example of the wonderful design of our Creator God," the posting said.

Absolute certainty

For creationists, there are no transitional creatures and no doubts. In the Book of Genesis, the biblical calendar of creation is as clear and simple as it is sacred: God created creatures of the sea and the air on Day 5. Land animals and man appeared on Day 6. And all of this, including the creation of Earth, happened about 6,000 years ago.

"Is the Bible the word of God or is it not? If you're going to reinterpret it from ideas outside the Bible, which continue to change, then it's not," said Ham, 54, a former high school biology teacher from Australia, who leads Answers in Genesis' 12-year-old U.S. branch. "The point I make is the Bible's account of creation is so black and white and has not changed, but man's ideas have changed."
(Brief interruption here; remember this quote later, when you get to the part about the dinosaurs. One of the things that gets me most about creationist "scientists" is their hypocritical claim to believe that the Biblical account of creation is literal and complete, while simultaneously attempting to incorporate new discoveries that aren't Biblical into their worldview. There are no dinosaurs anywhere in the Bible. Any attempt to claim otherwise is pathetic at best, and at the worst, plain fraudulent. In fact, for a long time, creationists claimed dinosaur bones were a hoax. Some even went so far as to say they were placed there by God as a test of faith. The whole idea that a species could go extinct was, for some time, considered heretical, because it implied that God could somehow have created a creature that wasn't meant to be here. The point I make here is that Ham wants to claim that Christian ideas about creation haven't changed. But they have, and only the hypocrites can really claim otherwise. I now leave this slightly less than brief interruption. -M)

Ham is far from alone in that belief. According to nearly a quarter-century of Gallup polls, about half of all Americans consistently agree with the biblical account that "God created human beings pretty much in their present form at one time within the last 10,000 years or so." Polling also indicates that a majority of Americans say creationism should be taught alongside evolution in public school biology classes.

"It is strengthening. It's not adding more proponents, it's growing in terms of giving increased confidence to those who share that belief," said Ronald Wetherington, an anthropologist at Dallas' Southern Methodist University. He cited an American political climate in which creationists, who include many so-called values voters and evangelicals, feel politically and culturally empowered rather than marginalized.
In the United States, Answers in Genesis maintains a mailing list of 500,000 names and a monthly newsletter that goes out to as many as 120,000 readers, according to Mark Looy, chief communications officer.

Many of them have laid the financial foundation for the 50,000-square-foot, $25 million Creation Museum that Ham is building with donated money on a near-50-acre campus in the northern Kentucky countryside. As of March 31, almost $21 million had been raised, according to the Web site.

Minutes from the Cincinnati/Northern Kentucky International Airport, the location is no accident, as underscored by the airport's slogan, "Half the U.S. population within an hour's flight."

While mainstream scientists shake their heads, marketing research indicates Answers in Genesis may be welcoming up to 250,000 visitors a year after the museum's scheduled debt-free opening next spring, according to Michael Zovath, vice president of the Creation Museum. Admission fees remain to be determined.

"The 250,000 people going to it will go back to their legislators and pressure them to vote for Jesus," said Volney Gay, director of the Center for Religion and Culture at Vanderbilt University in Nashville. "There's a suspicion of science and a suspicion of intellectuals in general."

Said Ham: "What we see is if you can get information to people, their worldview will be changed, and the way they vote on issues, on a school board or whatever, will reflect that change."

But some visitors well may come from abroad. Startling the British scientific community, earlier this year an Ipsos MORI poll for the BBC , found that 48 percent of Britons accept evolution, 22 percent believe in creationism and 17 percent choose intelligent design. Further, while 69 percent want evolution taught in the science classroom, 44 percent wanted creationism included.

Those kinds of numbers fuel and finance Answers in Genesis. The organization also maintains offices in Australia, Canada, New Zealand, South Africa and the United Kingdom, which is the fastest-growing ministry after the U.S., Zovath said. In fact, he said, the strength of the 3-year-old British operation has reached the point that it held its first international conference there last weekend in Derbyshire.

Earlier this month, the Royal Society, Britain's most prestigious scientific body, signaled its rising concern about creationism and education by issuing a stern statement "opposing the misrepresentation of evolution in schools to promote particular religious beliefs."

Nonetheless, already there has been talk of charter flights from Britain to visit the museum next year, Zovath said. What they and other visitors will see promises to dwarf any other such creationist museum effort in terms of scale, presentation and marketing savvy. Once past the entry gates, flanked by two hulking steel silhouettes of stegosauri, they will enter a sprawling, parklike campus, graced by a large lake and lush landscaping. In the center of it all: an august, faintly templelike building done in honey-colored stone and fronted by 11 thick pillars.

Inside, the museum will feature 31 rooms, 200 exhibit themes produced by a former Universal Studios designer and 55 video presentations, all offering creation science's evidence for the Genesis account. There also will be a 2,600-square-foot bookstore with a medieval castle motif, a 150-seat Noah's Cafe with dinosaur footprints embedded in the floor, an 84-seat planetarium, a 60-seat theater and a spacious refreshment area with palm trees and a waterfall.

The dinosaur replicas, many of them animatronic, are spectacular: Creationists say dinosaurs lived simultaneously with humans because their death came only after original sin. Some of the more compelling effects are in the key rooms depicting what are called "The Seven C's of History." They are: creation, corruption, catastrophe (the destruction of the world by Noah's flood), confusion (Babel), Christ, the cross and consummation (his death and resurrection).

Along the Creation Walk

For instance, soft lighting, gentle sounds and pleasant fragrances will mark the Creation Walk, where Adam and Eve chat with God in the Garden of Eden before they are corrupted to commit original sin by an animatronic serpent. The dimly lit Corruption galleries, by comparison, will feature videos of pain and suffering, noxious odors and the heat, literally, turned up.

"We're trying to make this the most uncomfortable place in the museum to show how original sin has corrupted the universe," Zovath said on a tour through the site.

Through constant speaking tours, daily radio broadcasts and numerous publications, Ham relentlessly drives home the message that Answers in Genesis "is a Christ-centered ministry dedicated to upholding the authority of the Bible from the very first verse."

The museum, he said, is the embodiment of that and a "symbol of Christians making a stand, a physical stand here, not in a nasty, aggressive way, but in a nice, aggressive way."

Terms of debate

Evolution: Charles Darwin's theory, accepted nearly universally by scientists, says that all life on Earth, including human, shares common ancestry and evolved to its present state through random mutation and natural selection.

Creationism: Advanced by religious conservatives in response to Darwin's theory, creationism adheres to the biblical account that God alone created the world and all life in it, much as it is today, at one point within the last 10,000 years.

Creation science: Claims scientific evidence for the biblical version of creation.

Intelligent design: Considered a successor to creationism, intelligent design became popular in the early 1990s after the U.S. Supreme Court banned the teaching of creationism in public schools in 1987. Intelligent design posits that there are weaknesses in Darwin's theory and suggests that an unnamed intelligence must have designed some aspects of life.

-- Lisa Anderson

Monday, March 27, 2006

More Thoughts on Immigration

A couple of weeks ago, after the march against HR 4437, I got into a discussion with a friend about illegal workers and my friend pointed out that the "jobs Americans won't do" rhetoric is ultimately the president's rhetoric and that protecting the current status of illegal immigrants in this country is comparable to protecting indentured servitude. After a brief back and forth about the issue, I had to tap out, because her points were good ones, and I really don't know enough about illegal immigration to properly argue.

Today, Tom Tomorrow's blog had a reprint of his thoughts on the issue of illegal immigration and the president's idea that the illegal immigrants are good for doing the job Americans won't do. Here's the post, in full. It summarizes my friend's points pretty well. In short, the president wants to give illegal immigrants a "temporary worker" status, which would allow them to work in this country without without application of U.S. labor laws to their status. So they'd still be overworked and desparately underpaid and the risk of deportation would only be lifted in the thinnest way. Put like that, I can't deny that's a problem. Certainly I could never advocate a new age of slavery in this country, nor could I advocate any law that allows corporations like Walmart to violate labor laws any more than they already do.

Still, there's something that bothers me about all of this. There were hundreds of thousands of people marching in the protest against HR 4437. These people weren't Bush supporters (the Bush=Nazi signs that some were carrying gave that away) and they weren't ignorant, well-meaning middle classers, either. These people were immigrants. Many of them, I'm certain, were illegal immigrants. Clearly there's a reason people come to this country illegally, despite the dangers and the shit working conditions. If I knew what that reason was, I'd write it here. The rhetoric of "opportunity" and "land of freedom" springs to mind, beaten into me as it was when I was a kid. Maybe the promise that their children will be American citizens, protected by our laws, if they're born on our soil.

On a deeper level, this isn't about illegal immigrants or immigrants, at all, but the American worker. It's about big corporations finding a loophole in American labor laws so they can pay their workers nothing and keep all the extra money for themselves. Clearly, the president's men shouldn't be allowed to exploit that loophole. But at the same time, the proposed wall around America to keep illegal immigrants out somehow doesn't seem right, either. Not because it would be ineffective (although it would) but because it misidentifies the threat to our working class. It isn't the Mexicans. It's the businesses and the corporations who abuse their workers because they know they can always find someone who will work for less. This practice isn't limited to illegal immigrants. Abuse of legal unskilled laborers is not as uncommon as we want to believe, and while there are laws in place to protect those laborers, the punishment for violating them is usually a slap-on-the-wrist fine.

Tom Tomorrow has a quote on his blog that sums up my thoughts on this issue nicely:

“Society is made up of groups, and as long as the smaller groups do not have the same rights and the same protection as others - I don’t care whether you call it capitalism or communism -it is not going to work. Somehow, the guys in power have to be reached by counterpower, or through a change in their hearts and minds, or change will not come.”- Cesar Chavez

The argument that the way to protect illegal immigrants from abuse by large corporations is to kick them out of the country and build a wall, and the suggestion that laws that make illegal immigration a more criminal offense is wrong, because it strips the rights of people who already have no power, while leaving intact the power of the people committing abuse. Until we turn our eyes inward and enforce already existing labor laws with real consequences, it won't matter if the worker is American or not. She will still be abused.

Thursday, March 23, 2006

V

Today started out so promising. The sun was shining, the air was cool but not cold, and that damp, earthen smell that signifies spring was in the air. Then the clouds rolled in. The day is still fighting for good weather--if this was a weather report, there'd be a bit of sun peaking out behind the cloud graphic--but it's not looking great.

I went and saw V for Vendetta with Mr. B last night. Here's Ain't it Cool News's review in full:

A few weeks ago, the British House of Commons passed a law banning the “glorification” of terrorism. This proposal is viewed as frighteningly broad, as the word “glorification” could have many interpretations and definitions. Obviously, this lack of clarity brings with it the potential for tremendous abuse of authority.

The timing of this measure is grimly ironic given the impending release of V FOR VENDETTA, an incendiary film that passionately renounces such lawmaking, and constantly reminds us that the obliteration of freedom – both personal and broad – tends to start in simple, subtle, and apparently well-intended ways.

At its heart, V FOR VENDETTA is not a terribly complicated story. It’s the journey of three characters. One towards vengeance, one towards awakening, as the third tries to understand the slipstream of destruction left in their wake – ultimately finding himself enlightened by the journeys of the other two. Save for a few twists and turns (which aren’t particularly twisty or turny), V’s plot is so simple that it hardly merits regurgitation:

In a totalitarian Britain, where asking questions equals dissent & citizenry/press know that their government has over-consolidated its power, an “every person” (Natalie Portman’s Evey) chances into a firestorm of dissidence unleashed by a man called “V” (voiced and performed by Hugo Weaving, although he is never seen.) Evey’s eyes are slowly opened to the truth about, and the dangers of, power. How easily it can be attained, and how fully it can misused. More importantly, she learns that the most potent word that can ever be spoken by anyone, anywhere, is a simple word with only two letters: “No.”

The movie is almost ridiculous in its simplistic structure. But “structure” isn’t what V FOR VENDETTA is about. It’s about essence, and meaning. V is very much an allegory for human events: The Nazis of yesterday, the insidious dangers facing our world today, and what our failure to recognize such patterns means for the world of tomorrow. Notions like the United States’ Patriot Act, Britain’s increased video surveillance of motorized traffic, America’s pre-knowledge of (and possible inaction towards) 9/11, and the movement to dilute the legal sanctity of homosexual relationships are all pointedly evoked. More subtle, but equally dangerous, trends are also touched upon (“If you’re not for the war in Iraq, then you don’t love our country!”); their dangers are vividly (and viscerally) illustrated here.

V FOR VENDETTA is far from perfect. The pacing in the film’s final quarter feels decidedly less urgent than the material that came before it, and the movie leaves are about ten jillion questions unanswered – some of which are better left unanswered. Despite such quirky shortcomings, V FOR VENDETTA is a frequently potent, consistently stirring film whose greatest impact rises not from the story it’s actually telling, but in its relationship to the world we live in. In the reality V FOR VENDETTA urges us to create, the film itself would probably never exist – because it would not need to exist. If only we were there, and if only that were so.

But in the here and now, V is a constantly chilling and sometimes humbling wake-up call. A rather brilliantly considered one at that: It’s certainly possible to argue the artistic merits of the film. But if one argues what the film is saying, then we effectively becoming one of the very people the film is warning us against…much like the dynamic forcibly created by V himself.

It’s challenging to accept that the ideas worth dying for are not always the ideas our governments tell us are worth dying for. It’s even more uncomfortable to swallow the notion that we, as a populous, are responsible for the actions of our government simply because we put The Powers That Be in office. “If you want to see who is responsible…” intones V, “Look no further than a mirror.”

After the movie, I looked in the mirror. I’m not sure I liked the person I saw – as a citizen, or as a father. This being said, my twelve year old understood this movie. He felt it. He got it.Maybe I didn’t do such a bad job after all. And, maybe there’s hope for us yet…

Alan Moore has this great way of using the superhero genre to comment on humanity. In The Watchmen, his heros are just as broken as the people they fight, and perhaps more so (the character Rorschach's back story actually fits the psychological profile of a lot of serial killers). If the lens were turned just slightly, we'd see them as monsters, or at the very least, desperate neurotics.

V uses its hero to ask the question "what is the difference between a freedon fighter and a terrorist?" And mostly its answer is "The direction of your lens." And though it was written 20 years ago, it has a startlingly poignant message about the times that we are in now--about what causes a populace to give up freedom to an increasingly dictatorial government, about the way fear can can be used to play upon our minds. Go see it. It won't disappoint.

Strange Dreams...
I've been fairly silent, I know, about The Strange Dreams of Nobody in Particular. Mostly this is because Shiny and I are still in the "writing and structure" phase of the project, where we write story after story and then arrange and rearrange them on a big whiteboard and try to see how the entire massive endeavor will look to someone who isn't us. Which is why I haven't had much to say. Writing about writing is a bit like dreaming about sleeping.

Suffice to say, the project is coming along. These days I alternate between thinking, "Oh good...we're right on track," and, "Oh God...we'll never get this thing off the ground! It's too big." And I think a lot of it depends on what time of day I happen to glance at the whiteboard.

One bit of good news is that Ed and Steve of ...i think not fame have agreed to write songs for the show. Those two can write a mean folk song. We had a preliminary meeting with them a couple of weeks ago, and it left me very excited.

Finally, speaking of Mr. B, he has a blog and has finally given me permission to put up a link in my sidebar. Which I will do right now.

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

Pi Day

So it turns out today is Pi Day, today being March 14, which can be written out as 3.14. Celebrations sort of unofficially start at 1:59 (3.14159) , but you can really celebrate all day if you want. Pi Day celebrations include indulging in anything that starts with the letters "pi". Presumably, this means you could dress as a pirate while drinking a pina colada and pining for your lost love. Pining doesn't make for a great celebration, though, so I recommend piling on top of some new love, instead.

Or you could just go the obvious route and eat a slice of pie. Make sure it's a square pi, though, because "the pie is sometimes square, due to the pronunciation of the equation area of a circle: πr2 (i.e. pie are squared)." Math geeks are so cool.

Friday, March 10, 2006

Something Happening Here

This is the view from my office window right now:






















If you can't see it, those are people down there as far as the eye can see. Thousands upon thousands of people, marching in opposition to HR 4437, an antiimigration law written, "To amend the Immigration and Nationality Act to strengthen enforcement of the immigration laws, to enhance border security, and for other purposes. " I don't know enough about the particulars of the law to comment on it (HR 4437 apparently restricts immigration rights and makes it a criminal act to employ an illegal immigrant), but as my boss pointed out, illegal immigrants are already deported. How much more illegal do we have to make it?

Still, there's something about the feeling of this much charged emotional energy in one place that is incredibly invigorating. It's palpable. You can feel it, even nine stories up, you can feel the crowd cheering, the drums. It really is amazing.

(thanks for Bogdan for the picture)

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Out of Touch

Sweet Mama of Judah, I haven't written in a long time. Sorry about that. I've been busy with rehearsals (coming along nicely...I'm getting very fitt) and writing Strange Dreams... (also coming along quite nicely...we will have music in our show, thanks to Ed and Steve).

The big news of the past two weeks is that a story of mine has been accepted for publication. On paper and everything. My story "Every Little Farm Girl Knows How to Fix a Tractor" will appear in the inaugural issue of NY Tyrant magazine. At the moment, I'm working with one of their editors to pare down and tighten the story. Suffice to say, I'm excited.

And with that little bit of news, I'm off to a Strange Dreams... meeting.

Saturday, February 18, 2006

Feel the Burn

Rehearsal was cancelled today, which leaves me with a day unexpectedly open to do with whatever I will. It's honestly a bit disappointing, because I look forward to rehearsals, but at the same time, my body could use the day off. Since The Prometheus Myth is going to require a lot of physical strength and stamina from its actors, we've started devoting a half hour of rehearsal to something called FIT training (FIT supposedly stands for something other than "fitness" but nobody seems to know what), which is a cycle of low-impact aerobic exercises designed to firm muscles and build stamina. We've did our first bit of FIT training on Thursday, and I have not been so sore since I took a step aerobics class in high school. Truly, I never realized how out of shape I am. So I'm glad to be getting back into shape. And I'm also glad I don't have to do it today, because Thursday kicked my ass from there to Sunday.

A Good Week for Artwork...


One of the cool things about my hobby is that, since I'm making something that people want, I can periodically trade a bottle for something else. I recently ran a batch of absinthe and sent a bottle to Sam and Terry. In trade, Sam offered these:



I love them. Sid Wangmeister, incidentally, was the porn name I took for myself in college when I was writing the as-yet unmade existentialist porn, Coital Solution (the tag line of which was "Show Me How to Make Mayonaise, Baby"). Sid was the comic relief for the film. He owned a kosher deli and would make suggestive jokes about pickles. Perhaps you see why this film was never made.

On Tuesday, I also received this. I didn't get this for barter, but the money I spent on it helped my friend Ursula take a trip to Costa Rica for some very good causes. So everyone wins.

I think I'll spend my day off buying some hanging brads and searching my apartment for wall space.

Thursday, February 09, 2006

Radio Free Xsnania

I realize I've been running on silent for the past couple of weeks, and for that, I'm sorry. There's a couple of reasons for this. One is that rehearsing for The Prometheus Myth and trying to write Strange Dreams... has kept me busier than I naively expected it to. It's not so much that I have no time to write here, it's just that the time I do have I spend either sleeping or catching up with people I really love, so I just haven't had any impetus to write.

Strange Dreams... is coming along nicely. It's hard to say if it's exactly where I thought it would be at this point, since I really didn't have any idea how to begin crafting this piece when we began, but my friend Shiny and I are writing stories and sharing them, and those stories are engendering other stories, which in turn bear other stories, and so forth. In short, the basic idea of the show, that we create our world through telling each other stories, is proving truer than I'd ever imagined.

The Prometheus Myth is also coming along nicely. In fact, fuck that, it's easily the most interesting and amazing piece of theatre I've gotten to work on in a long, long time. We had our one person leave the show already (there's always one in a show like this) and have spent the last two weeks working intensively with a Lacoc (sp?) movement teacher to learn to move as a group, create still but dynamic scenes, etc. It's been a little like military training, except the movements have been a lot more flowy. But the basic elements--not standing out from the group, being in the scene without dominating the scene, using all senses to make yourself aware of both the space around you and the people in it--is very military. I love it.

Last Saturday, our head puppeteer introduced us to Zeus, a six-foot bunraku puppet with a fully articulated face and hand. It's amazing. I got to play. And we get to do this until May.

The other big reason I haven't written is that in my off time, I've been really sick with some kind of creeping nasty cold that's kept me up coughing all night. It's slowly subsiding, and I've been resting a lot and drinking plenty of tea and sleeping at seven every night, but it's still lingering. Even as we speak, I'm drawing up a hot bath for myself to hopefully suck some of this cold feeling out of me and loosen my lungs a bit. Then an early bed time for me, I'm afraid.

Stupid disease.

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

To bury the hatchet...

This comment appeared in response to my ICM post of a few months back, and since that post is way far back in time, in the interest of presenting both sides of the argument, I thought I'd bump it up to the front:

I've been living in an ICM property for a few years and have had nothing but a great experience with these guys. While I have had a few maintenance issues during that time they have always responded promptly to my requests. When my fridge broke I had a new one in 3 days. The one time my hot water went out they had someone by to fix it that same day. I have recommended a few friends to ICM as well and they have all been very happy with their apartments.

I've heard other people have good experiences with ICM, but I just didn't. In my experience with them, they rarely made repairs in good time (when I left my apartment, the gaping hole in the close floor that they continually said they'd repair was still there) and their mode of doing business was at best unprofessional (they never once returned a phone call from me to let me know it was received or to tell me when their workmen would be over), at worst bullying and rude.

To their credit, however, after I moved out, they returned my entire deposit with interest, which is more than any other landlord has done. Their business manager even called me to apologize that they had misplaced the SASE I had sent and to tell me the check was on its way. Had the rest of my dealings with them been so professional and polite, I would probably still be in my apartment with them.

For Actors

I got this e-mail from my friend Braden last night:

Hello actors. I hope this message finds you all gainfully employed.

My name is Braden LuBell, and I am an experienced acting teacher and monologue coach, with a degree in acting and directing from Emerson College. I have worked professionally as both an actor and a director, as well as spending last year as the casting director for a new theater company in Philadelphia. After many extremely successful experiences in New York, Boston, and Philadelphia, I am attempting to begin teaching and coaching again, here in Chicago.

I have worked with a large spectrum of age groups (adolescent to middle aged), and actors of all levels of experience (novice to professional). I can work with you on pieces you already have in your repertoire, or I can help you find new monologues to work on as well. I am thorough, I love what I do, and I will always remind you how to have FUN with your work - too often forgotten about in the stress of trying to be an actor. You can always trust I will not send you off without making sure you are at your absolute best.

I am charging a mere $15.00 an hour for my services. This is an embarrassingly low rate, I know, but I am hoping the price’s lack of intimidation will entice people to at least give me a go-around. Of course, should anyone request it of me, I can provide enthusiastic recommendations from former students, many of whom are professionally working actors today.

I will come to you, or if you are not comfortable with that, we can arrange for an inexpensive rehearsal space. No commitment required; you can work with me once for an important audition, or we can set up a weekly appointment. Again, it’s a mere $15.00, so there’s nothing to lose. ( …Except $15.00.)
If you have any questions at all, or you would be interested in setting up a session, feel free to email me at :

http://by101fd.bay101.hotmail.msn.com/cgi-bin/compose?curmbox=00000000-0000-0000-0000-000000000001&a=d38e8d0312268d23c7cd005df3529d9dc1e0951f4f824bd0e4aebb9c08968ef4&amp;mailto=1&to=bradenlubell@hotmail.com&msg=6491A36F-8A34-4DB6-A3B1-2645ABC31969&start=0&len=4671&src=&type=x

Best of luck with all your endeavors, and I hope to hear from you soon.

All good thoughts,

Braden

I can vouch for Braden's skill. He directed Sue's show for the SF Fringe Fest, and it was excellent. So if anyone needs a monologue coach for auditions, go to him.

Thursday, January 19, 2006

Heirlooms

How to describe Pop?

Pop was my dad's grandfather, my great grandfather. I never met him. He died before I was born, but one of my earliest memories is of him, of sitting on a bench in a train station next to a man telling me he's my great grandfather. I've seen pictures of Pop, and I'm pretty sure it's him in my memory. That memory might just be there because of the world of stories about Pop that live on.

Pop spent most of his adult life working in glass. He was kind of a rennaissance man, so he applied himself to several trades; he worked at a specialty bookbinding house for a while, he painted, he etched glass, he cooked. He invented the ravioli recipe my family traditionally makes for Christmas dinner every year. When my father was a teenager, Pop took him and his cousins on trips up to NYC, down to Trenton, to Boston, to Washington, D.C., and cultivated a real love of travel in them. My mom describes him as the most complete gentleman she ever met.

I've always liked the stories about Pop. Like I said, I never met him, but since I became an adult, I've always felt like some part of him was a part of me.

Today, I got home and found an unexpected package at my door. I opened it, and found these inside:



These were decorated by Pop. He etched the Rs onto them (R for Rossi, of course). They are the only two left in the world, and my father gave them to me, because he said my Christmas gift this year reminded him of Pop and of the spirit of experiment, invention, and artistry that Pop had.

I can't think of a time I've felt more honored. I can't think of a gift I'll cherish more.

Monday, January 16, 2006

Acting and Workshop

Happy Martin Luther King, Jr., Day. Since I'm a state employee, I have the day off, and I plan to use it to its fullest extent. Whatever that might be. At the moment it means taking the chance to work on a project I've been meaning to get to and updating you on my life.

Last Wednesday, I auditioned for the Anatomy Collective's spring show, The Prometheus Myth, which is a movement/puppetry-based show in development around, well, the Prometheus myth. It was one of the most fun auditions I've had in a while and as such would have been worth going to in and of itself. I got a call from them on Saturday, and they told me that I've been cast. I'm looking forward to it. The show looks to be great fun, and the people doing it are neat, so I'm stoked. First rehearsal is on Wednesday.

My Strange Dreams...
The Strange Dreams of Nobody in Particular is my contribution to Tantalus's summer. I've been promising for a while that I'd talk about it here, but have been avoiding it because I'm not really sure where to begin. So I figured I'd just choose a place now and get it all out. Sorry for the information dump.

Strange Dreams...is going to be a serial show to be performed in its complete form over the run of a weekend. So Thursday will be one part, Friday will be the second, Saturday will be the third. The complete version will take a mosaic narrative structure, which will mean that an audience member can conceivably take in only one night and still leave feeling as though she has seen a complete show, or she can see all three nights and see a larger, richer show. Each show is like the tiles in a mosaic: each can stand on its own as a simple thing of beauty, but taken as a whole, they fit together as a large and intricate story.

At its core, Strange Dreams... is about storytelling and the simple type of theatrical magic that comes with listening to a good story told well. Spectacle in this piece will be minimal and largely peripheral, and the audience will be asked to use their imaginations to a degree not often asked of a modern, movie-going audience.

Since I've never created a show of this type, and since I've never seen a work of serial theatre, this piece poses several major challenges. Marketting is one of them. How to get an audience to come back several nights in a row? The other big problem is structuring the shows so that they can both stand alone and fit together.

I didn't know how to do this, so for the past month and a half, I've been in workshop with Tantalus folks and some trusted friends, exploring the art of storytelling and developing ways to tell a large story using several smaller stories. In the past two weeks, we took the myth of Orpheus and Eurydice and wrote stories around the negative space of Orpheus and Eurydice. Some of these stories intersected directly with Orpheus and Eurydice's story, some were far reaching, but related to the story. The idea was to use the negative space surrounding Orpheus and Eurydice to paint a picture of the myth itself. We played with this method for two weeks and then applied a structure, based in a nine-card tarot reading, to the whole thing. The first row of the nine cards dealt with the past. The second with the person that the reading is being done for. The third is the future.

We assembled stories in this way, wrote a few new ones and adapted old ones to better fit the tarot structure. On Thursday, we presented the findings of the workshop to some close and trusted friends in the form of the nine-story telling of the myth of Orpheus and Eurydice. I have to say, I was impressed with what we created. The workshop presentation wasn't the show we're going to perform, but it was an impressive piece of theatre in itself. From the comments my friends made and from their suggestions, I've learned a great deal about how we need to approach Strange Dreams... in order for it to work. We still have miles to go before we can even think of sleeping, but it was a very successful workshop and for the first time in a while, I'm absolutely confident that Strange Dreams... is going to be an amazing show.

Finally, what this workshop has renewed in me is the sense that there really isn't any excuse for bad theatre anymore. The show we presented at the workshop was put together in two weeks with no script, no costumes, no props, no money expended, just five people working hard and playing with their imaginations, and what we ended up with was an hour-long show I'd be proud to present at a festival. Given that, I can think of no excuse for creating a bad show. Just something to chew on for a while.

PS...
If there's anyone reading who is skilled in brazing metals and would be willing to share some of that knowledge with me firsthand, please let me know. I'm at a bit of a loss with a project I'm working on at present. Thanks.